One-two, buckle my shoe ... Thump, slam, crash. Scream out loud. There it goes again, and again, yet again. Three-four, knock at the door ... scream out loud. The knocking is inside my head, in the space between the front of my skull and between my ears. It is there that the pinball machine resides.
Hypersexuality and manic episodes are known to go hand-in-hand, but hyposexuality (low or no sex drive) can also be present as part of the bipolar illness. It is a known side effect of bipolar medication, so identifying whether it is the illness or the medication to blame, is not so easy. However, it is also easy for the psychiatrist or doctor to just blame the medication rather than talk about it and try to help with the problem.
I've been wide awake since 3 am. It's an intriguing time of night, 3 am. I like to call it 'the dead of night'. Nature is sleeping sweetly. The wildlife that frequents my garden are all nestled, gently breathing. Even the trees look asleep, as they stand strong and still, without a quiver from a single leaf.